Full Moon in Aquarius Thoughts
This year has been a wild ride. Lots of tower moments and lots of sun moments but nothing could have prepared me for what I have learned this past week leading up to the Blue Moon.
I have been at odds with myself for awhile now. Trying to find a balance within, trying to figure out exactly what it is I wish to do with my career, readings, community, art, writing and my podcast. I have been really trying to find me this week. To find what makes me whole.
You see, over this past few months I have been slowly putting the pieces together in my own life and journey and neglecting being human. I have been following the signs daily along my journey and I have had moments of "living" or being present in my body but I have rarely had a long period of time where I felt like I was not in fact floating, until the week leading up to this blue moon.
I was disconnecting or in fact bypassing a few of my own shadows while really going deep into healing of others shadows and building a community around healing and trying to bridge that gap between darkness and light for others while neglecting bridging my own gap. I was not living authentically because I was not being honest with myself and my knowing. I was living the illusion and not allowing myself to be present and truly see my own shadow work that is in need of transmuting.
I am very much a lightworker. I do my work though raising awareness to hidden / rejected emotions paving the way for you to find healing. I was doing that very much for others and I was neglecting seeing the shadows in my own life and how they were showing up for me. This blue moon brings the seed of change. Ridding yourself of the shadows of the past and all the blockages holding you back from accessing what you truly desire. These blocks can come in many forms from shadow work to karmic relationships to mindset shifts. The universe is saying now is the time to pay your debts and live your true path. That has been the message for most of us this blue moon, shedding layers of that which no longer serves you and making room for that which you desire.
What do I desire most?
The freedom to chose my life, the freedom to live my life without restriction. The freedom to be completely authentically me and bask in the unconditional love I feel for myself and the universe and everyone around me at all costs. To be completely free and submerged in my work towards gathering groups of lightworkers from around the world and fellow ascended in one spot to truly grow as a collective for the betterment of this planet.
A year ago I never would have thought this would be my life. I never would have thought that I would be sitting here writing about planting the seeds of change, healing others through self love and shadow work, spirituality, the divine and any kind of belief in any of this stuff that I believe and do now. I was not in high vibrational alignment a year ago. When I awakened I really awakened. It was beautiful and fun and oh so free. Imagine that, I felt free.
For the first time in my life I felt free.
Free to make my own choices not out of fear but out of freedom. My freedom lead me to choose Love instead of Judgement, Acceptance instead of Guilt and Embrace instead of Regret. I was choosing the path I loved, the path I knew I was meant for. But of course like all things what rises must fall.
Sure enough this blue moon had something to tell me. You are not done your shadow work, there is always more to uncover, integrate and transmute. When I offer my readings / coaching I want you to know that I know what it is like because more often than not I have been there or am there now. I am also human living the human experience and it is hard. It is incredibly challenging being a human being in this world right now. I want you all who are reading this to know that you are not alone. We as a collective are feeling these lingering decisions, grief, depression and frustrated feelings and it is overwhelming. We are in fact all in this together.
This blue moon I encourage you to release regret, judgement and guilt. Release these energies that are no longer serving your highest and greatest good and welcome love, acceptance and embrace in its stead. Embrace everything that you are in the light of the new moon, accept the fate of that which you can not change, and welcome love in all forms into your life at this time in abundance.
You are worthy.
You are beautiful.
You are enough.